For in a few moments there I had to ponder... It's been years I have been in the same church and doing the same ministries I am able to handle. Previously I was a Sunday School Teacher, an Ambassadors for Christ officer, a choir member and an AWANA leader. But back then I was simply a student still free to do things. Right now, I'm an employee in a known local newspaper and still giving some time helping out in AWANA ministry and the Choir ministry. Still attending the AFC observing and looking after the new young generations of young people.
Can't help but see time passes bye and realize things. I have been in the church for so long continually trying to disciple young people and helping them out to learn to disciple others as well. Discipling young people has been my desire for a long time, my heart's delight, but right now, as the church is currently in the theme of "Witnessing", somehow I had to look at my status on how well I have been winning souls for the Lord. And, I see my self lacking of it. I'm not saying I haven't been able to witness to any person but simply lacked much of effort or zeal of doing it. I do believe that we are commanded and should be part of witnessing, but it seems this is one of my weaknesses. The one thing that bothers me is the fact that most often many struggle in this area due to a lot of many factors (i think). Not everybody seem to have the gift of sharing things so easily especially to a complete stranger. It is a good thing though that there a lot of ways and methods that has been presented as by way of being able to share the gospel, like the AWANA ministry. It gives a portal for Christians to share the gospel to kids and train them. Cantata presentations are also one by which choir members can be part of witnessing to other people. Through songs that they sing and the preaching of the pastor, the gospel can be heard by unbelievers. But when it comes to sharing the gospel to our friends and love ones, it makes another whole new level or situation. It takes a lot of courage and much prayer I believe.
This time, it makes me wonder, with so much busyness, i can't seem to really figure out how could i even share the gospel with those close to me; friends, co-workers and other relatives. I sometimes would want to know whether am I really in the right direction or not? So much question remains in my mind like "Why give so much time in the church, when there is currently a great need to go out and share the gospel?" This is just one example of questions I have in mind.
Recently I have been able to be with my fellow elementary batchmates, which really challenges me to seek the salvation of my fellow batchmates. The problem? my time and my priorities. My co-workers too seem to be wanting that I go with them on certain activities. Their activities are not bad or evil and if I also would like for them to know Christ, then I must do something. Problem? Still time management or perhaps activity management.
All through out the week, 24/7, I see myself much busy in the church. Why? because I see the need of helping. And perhaps a problem? Only few see the needs. Only few would commit. Only few would give lives. If only all the church members would take part, how magnificent would it be. But it seems this doesn't often happen at all. Here we are learning a lot, but so few do it. I really wonder, pondering.... too much needs...
Well, for some reason from time-to-time we Christians should really review our priorities and also perhaps the circumstances we are in. And truthfully there's a lot of factors affecting our management of our priorities. Unorganized plans, abrupt decisions and useless activities most often destroy efficient and effective priority management. Wisdom, i believe is what we are lacking. Great wisdom from God is what God's people need. Discernment of what does God desires and separating it from our own desires. And, most importantly, that we obey and follow it. Oh how I wish we Christians have that kind of attitude, where we can discern and know God's heart & desires at the same time we obey. We Christians have to seek God's will, continually depending always on Him and learn to obey Him.
Truly, the harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few.