For quite some time, I have been really in a place what we may call “the frontline” in the spiritual battle of the Christian life. As young as I am (ows?), I’ve seen a lot of things already and experience a lot too. But doesn’t mean I know everything about life, for I know my years haven’t ended yet. God gives me more years to live and to face more challenges and trials in life. I also have to admit not every challenge I have faced I have conquered nor every test I’ve succeeded or passed. I too have failed at many areas in my life. It just feels so strange and mysterious how certain things and circumstances are in life. Things I have to go through. Things uncomprehendable and unexpected, but after these, it builds who you are at present.
There is much to say about being in the front line, and a big question lingers my mind. “Why do many Christians fear to be in the frontline?” But perhaps I’ve answered some reasons why. But being in the frontline doesn’t only talk about trials or challenges. It also talks about Power and Miracle God gives, or God’s Grace and Mercy He provides. It also talks about growth and strength in every day of our lives.
I remember Jasper asking me or telling me about how I look like so stressed out person (maybe more like looking nutcase) at the time our Easter Cantata draws nigh. But adding up another statement saying, “isn’t it that, that makes life not boring?” Well I have to agree with that. Truly every time I face a challenge, I feel like hanging on a cliff just giving all my strength to survive and hoping to be able to get up in an instant. But unlikely just hanging on a cliff, it was a very long, long, long hard and strenuous hanging on a cliff, just enough to make you feel to let go and give up. But after such a trial / challenge, after the rain, indeed the sun shines again. After a long dark tunnel, emerges the end of it and light starts to show forth beauty on whatever we see.
And I think, it’s just right for me to say, it was not my own doing. God has His great part on how I ever emerged from every challenge. If I would share some insights on how I see “The frontline” one common thing I see would be, “it definitely makes you feel alone”. Although even knowing that someone or many people may be at your back, it would still be different if someone will be facing it by your side. But most often, I believe no matter how we face challenges, there will always be that feeling of loneliness of facing it. It’s strange how that is. But every time I think or feel this way, that’s the time I have to go to God. Kneeling and begging for His mercy and grace, giving all up to Him. It kind’a reminds me of Christ that night when He had to come to the Father and pray, begging the Father to take away the cup of suffering He had to bear, but not His will but the Father’s will. It’s amazing that even the Son of God had to come to the Father and pray. How much more should we as His adopted sons and daughters? Christians as we call ourselves.
There is nothing much we could do but actually lay down our lives and completely trust in God everyday of our lives, every moment and every hour. Totally depending on Him no matter what the circumstances or outcome we face. Strangely enough after the storm, you might be surprised on what happens every time the storm ends.
